9/11 tribute

waste of time quiz

o1. tell me the truth, what made you start liking the person you like right now? attraction.
o2. what on your body is hurting or bothering you? a lil sun on my back
o3. what was your last thought before going to bed last night? its pouringgggg raining, my patio door is open...and i don't care.
o4. what are you listening to? brit laugh
o5. what’s something you’re not looking forward to? school starting
o6. where do you think your best friend is right now? in another state :(
o7. have you kissed anybody in the last five days? nope
o8. sex on the first date? no. not happening til wedding date.
o9. kiss on the first date? yea y not
1o. is there one person you want to be with right now? yess
11. are you seriously happy with where you are in life? YESSS
12. is there something you would like to say to someone? oh lots.
13. what are three things you did today? woke up to no alarm at 6 a.m., watched the ocean for a little, and just laughed.
14. would you rather sleep at a friend’s or have them over? have them over
15. what is your favorite kind of gum? spearmint
16. are you friends with any of your ex boyfriends? yes, all.
17. whats your dream car? black gmc sierra 
18. ever liked someone you thought you didn’t stand a chance with? hmm yeah sophomore year
19. does anyone have strong feelings for you? yes
2o. One dream you have that you have not accomplished yet? running a big business w/my husband
21. have you ever wasted your time on someone? oh yes.
22. Sun or tanning bed?  spf Always. & i will never step foot in a tanning bed again.
23. Phone or text? Um don't really like talking on the phone or texting.
24. you receive $60 without any reason, what do you spend it on? good food.
25. what is wrong with you right now? I just need to go to the bank. thats the only concern of the day...
26. is there anyone you’re really disappointed in? nope
27. would you rather have starbucks or jamba juice right now? jamba juice aloha pinapple xtra strawberries.
28. why aren’t you in ‘love’ with your last ex anymore? ...
29. how late did you stay up last night and why? 1a.m. the rain :)
3o. when was the last time you talked to one of your best friends? 2 days ago
31. Dark haired or blonde? Dark.
32. what are you looking forward to in the next month? talking to jamie!!
33. are you wearing jeans right now? nope
34. are you a patient person? not really
35. do you think you can last in a relationship for three months? of course
36. favorite color? turquoise blue
37. How many people have you kissed?  7 that count. 2 that don't count. yah i dont just kiss anyone.
38. are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants, or pajama pants? pajama pants
39. What is the best quality of your future husband?  LOVES kids
4o. Do you fall hard? Nooo
41. Can you get over people fast? yes.
42. do you like meeting new people? lovvvve it.
43. Are you picky? yah. too picky sometimes
44. ever liked someone older than you? yess
45. has anyone ever told you that you have pretty eyes? yup
46. Do like to exercise? I like to play sports. Not just run for no reason.

loves

-rap.indie.country music playlist.

-buffalo chicken tacos

-waking up to a good text :)

-meeting new people and knowing nothing about them

-my iphone

-my 3 best friends. emily. monica. kristian.

-Modern family 

-Blaring music

-when my man smells good :)

-a good foot massage

-naps

-ideas

-real people.

-freestylin' with my girls

somethings about me that will never change-

My suitcases are always overweight. And I am always shoving 16-28 pounds into my carryon last minute...even the Elders on my mission can vouch for that :)

[brit + me] = We.

& We like Real people... 

You only come across Real People every once in a while. A real person. No games. No lies. or fronts... just plain real. Those are the people that we keep in our lives...and will always remain.  When we meet someone who's real...we look at each other and don't even have to say anything. We just point..and feel it.

i love this lil man. his mind runs like mine. he just just took all the brains.

I am going to miss him

but...

I am so thankful for this chance to be here living in Paradise. 

with-A few goals in mind...

No attachments or nonsense  

just pure bliss

lots of snacks

good grades-hopefully :)

some new business ideas

and ummmm

something tells me love will find me here...

it's funny cuz im not looking and i don't need it right now. but ijust.know.it's coming.
i love love
&if theres something iv learned- its that...

2people do not have to be perfect- to be perfect for one another...
i just want someone who makes me want to be better
who respects me completely.
who is honest.
and will fight for me no matter what.
he is a hard worker and provider.
 he doesn't mess around
and doesn't do what's "convenient" 4him


He recognizes something good and does Not let it go.


iv never been a hopeless romantic. I don't even like chick flicks- 
But I have a few things that on the top of my list... and i won't settle for less.

day 1. priceless.

hmm. woke up at 6 a.m. went to the beach, walked to the gas station to get some treats, showered, laid around, then remembered we were here for college, took the bus to school- created the perfect major :) (all the things I love in one major), walked around campus, met some people, saw some people I didn't know were here, went to the grocery store. Brit got healthy stuff. I didn't. Ate some tacos.Took a nap. Went to the beach. Ate some more. eating a popsicle. 

loving life.

 <3 waking up to this.

 already has an addiction.

 our home.

many grillouts to come... :)

 <3 sisters.

1st night in hawaii.

lots of little things i love so far. for example going to the bathroom at the airport when this sign is there to greet you.

so its technically 3 a.m. in my texasbody but only 9 p.m. here.

started off the night with some Mcdonalds,

Got to our house.

We live on the top floor.

UM ITS AMAZING! SO nice! SO CLEAN.

heres a lil pic i just took.

I have already cried. I was hanging up a dream catcher and Hit my head on the metal ceiling fan that was on high. It cut my head open and I have a bump the size of golf ball. Tears shot out of my eyes-automatically. Britt tried to comfort and pat my head as she died laughing. We were too happy to let that ruin the night...

We didn't get to see the ocean yet cuz it too dark- But we can sure hear it from our bedroom window/patio...Thats the plan for the morning: Walk about 500 feet outside the front door to the ocean. 

I am so happy right now.

So at peace.

AND SO READY FOR OUR NEW LIFE here in Hawaii :)

10 thoughts of the day


1. Brit and I are too addicted to LOCKUP.
2. How in the world are we gonna eliminate 28 pounds from our suitcases so were underweight!
3. I ate 4 snickers ice cream bars today
4."But don't forget about that golden rule
What you do to others is gonna get done to you
What comes around goes around
I'm telling you baby, it's called karma" -j.andrews
5. I am so obsessed with music. especially GOOD country.
6. I have made a few promises to myself and god this week :)
7. I am going to miss my family sooooo much
8. I got my own ;)
9. I havnt ever had my heart broken but it sure feels like heartbreak when your lied to by someone who says they are "crazy about you"...
10. WHATtttttttt????? I'm moving to HAWAIII tomorrow!!??!??!?!

It does sometimes take Sundays to kinda kick me back into gear. Brit and I sang a duet in church today... "where can I turn for peace". The first verse says, " where can I turn for peace where is my solace...when other sources cease to make me whole... Where with a wounded heart anger or malace, I draw my apart searching my soul" I honestly feel like our world is constantly seeking happiness- which is an amazing thing. But it's so easy to look for it inthe wrong places... And most of the time we do it unconsciously. It's so important That one does not look to the "worldly pleasures" just to satisy themselves temporarily. I had a hard kinda frustrating night a couple weeks back- And I walked in chandlers room. He was sleeping so peaceful in his ohio state buckeyes Room. I laid by him and felt at peace. My heart just overfilled with love- I have to say I don't think I'll ever forget that moment. I kissed him on the cheek and he didn't say "ew" or run away :) I love the little blessings in life we receive when we stop for a few seconds and think or do something small but special.

whoah! Theres a lot of exciting things about to happen. I am a little nervous for once in my life. I am moving to Hawaii on Tuesday - studying business and a few other minor details involving someone returning home.... :) I don't have many plans but I am so excited to see what God has planned for me

Once upon a time there was a very imperfect family who lived in a house full of laughter. Some unnecessary jokes making fun of mom or hunter, some breakouts into wrestling matches, and a lot of singing took place in this imperfect home. Mom was always doing something for someone. Dad was always sticking up for mom and was always trying to do things right. Paige was probably eating or working on some other business idea she had in her crazy head, brit was resting. oh yeah..she Loved to rest. Hunt was coming in sweaty from football eating the entire fridge. A.j...was multi-tasking..watching espn top 10 and playing on his itouch and ipad at the same time. Over in the kitchen Chander was creating science with all moms spices and trying to sell it on the streets. 

One night they all got together and played some scattagories and let chandler win. or maybe he really did beat all of them because he was more intelligent than the whole family put together.

Yeah, once upon a time there was an imperfect family who Loved each other sooooo much, made fun of each other TOOOOO much, and well....this story is to be continued....

 i have always dreamed of living on the ocean.

finally its happening...in 4 days

on one of the most beautiful islands in the world.

hawaii.

I can't wait to...

learn to surf

eat popsicles

be free

have rainy/sunny days everyday

not know ANYONE

so i can meet ALL new people

play the guitar and sing

study in the sand

and Live on love.

with my sis.

Sometimes i feel like i walk around and around in circles...

I want out.

what's really important....?

Happy Birthday to the BEST MISSIONARY I KNOW. Elder James Murray. 

crazy. HE COMES HOME IN 1 MONTH!!!

Sunday Sissy Singing

 

addiction.

 

love.

 giddy.

 

10 days. 

So I'm liking blogging again. I'm so visual- I don't like just writing out feelings cuz sometimes only a song or a picture is the only way to explain how one is feeling. So let's see... Everyone keeps asking how The "post mission" life is. For those of you that don't know- when you are on a mission you dedicate 100% of yourself to helping others. From 7 a.m. - 11 p.m. Everyday. All day. I think that is why I loved my mission so much- because I didn't worry about anything going on in my own life. I love the Chilean people so much. I honestly have never felt a love so strong. I think that was the hardest thing about coming home- was not being able to dedicate myself to something I loved so dearly. About 3 weeks after being home I had a really hard week or so. I was so emotional and literally just wanted to escape the world- jump on a plane and be back doing something I loved with all my heart. To help people accept christ in their lives was an irreplacable feeling. I know that I was sent to Concepcion, Chile for specific people- who I can't wait to reunite with again one day. Ok, I'm gonna do a post about my
Mission one day when I don't have mascara on-

Anyways, yes coming home was hard. I have always heard that missionaries are weird when they come home or just feel lost... So before I came home I told myself I would not let that happen to me. Well it was out of my control and YES it did happen to me. I felt lost for a little bit. Naturally- I am someone who cannot stand to be bored... I like to constantly be doing something, so to come home and not have every minute mapped out for me- did not work out so well. But ya know, eventually everything fell into place. Now I have a good job making good money- and I have been able to meet some new friends

dating- um not so much. We'll have to wait until the island is my home for that to be a category in my life. Honestly though, I am so ready to just be free. Not worries no attachments just the ocean and sand to keep me company.

Brittany and I were in target today and accidentally grabbed makeup without SPF in it. So brit ran 5 feet away from the register to grab the one with SPF... The women behind us started to tap her foot and get anxious after 10 seconds. What a crazy world we live in. People are just too rushed all the time. Brit and I walked away and thought- wow. Calm down world. We then had our second discussion this week about how America just needs to take a chill pill. We need to remember lifes to short to rush our lives away. Agree?

“Even if we’re just driving around in our RV camper and hitting all the local fast-food joints I’ll tease my hair and put it up in a little scrunchie.”

—	Dolly Parton

so i love art. i have one problem though... i am not very patient. My mother is an amazing artist. I'll never forget the day when i found all her old artwork tucked away-never to be seen. GOSH-shes soooo talented.. i wish she would have pursued it. Anyways, this is my first pencil drawing in Highschool. Just found it- ITS HUGE in real life. but if u can't tell...it's Miss Britney Spears-back in the good ol' days. I got a nice chunk if money/scholarships for some art.. i'll have to go find some of them someday to post.

 spark,

  please be there when he comes home

all time favorite song. forever and always.

and this lovely lady covers it rather well... :)

 

I dream of a farm house-right outside the city.

lots of little ones running around.

a hard workin' man.

ATHLETIC children.

a simple life.

a Christ-centered home

a garden-so I can make chilean salads.

 i dream of

laughter...

tears.

Singing

fishing.

a TAN man.

an art studio

Country Music.

I dream of mom/dad pulling up in their RV

good dinners

family bonfires

and

just plain ol' happiness.

obsessed.

And I'll look back in regret how I ignored when they said 'Run as fast as you can’

But I took your matches
Before fire could catch me
So don’t look now
I’m shining like fireworks
Over your sad empty town

-T.S.

Sister Brittany. Sorry there is NOBODY in my life like her.
So Paige was born. exactly 2 years later lil brit was born. I came out with blonde curly hair. Brit came out with wispy white hair. No more hair than the end of a q-tip. Brit followed me everywhere I went. We made barbie houses, forts, and played dress-up everyday. We had a lot of stuff for a lil poor family. Lots of garage sales I guess. So anyways, people say we look alike/act alike... some say were opposite. I'll tell u how it is. We're both crazy. And thats about the only thing we have in common. BRIT is free. She is more carefree than a piece of gum. She just goes. She just lives. I am not. I like a plan. I like a checklist. She likes to lay. I like to do. I dance. She laughs. I talk. She laughs. GOSH-if anyone knows brittany... U KNOW her laugh is contagious. If you mess with her...she will WRECK your world. Im sorry. She did get the "crazy" gene in the family. And gave me a few cells of it. I am messy and creative and messy and really messy. We currently share a room until we leave in 2 weeks for hawaii. I get yelled at everyday for my clothes on the floor. It's kinda like one of those automatic things... you blink out of habit. It's automatic. My clothes just automatically get dropped on the floor. I leave trails.

Brit had a hard year. I was in chile when she found out she had cancer I will never forget getting that email... And literally dropping to my knees in the mission office. I felt helpless. Literally thousands of miles away...and I couldn't even hug her. I wanted more than anything to just crawl up in a ball in my bed and not do anything. But I knew that would not help. SO I PRAYED MY HEART OUT. I felt peace. I am so proud of her. She has gone through so much and is still feeling the pains/after effects. But finds a way to stay positive and be a "freebird" as we call call her.  And we be fllyyyinnn to hawaii in 2 weeks baby.

Brit. SERIOUSLY is my best friend. We should be twins because we alwayyyyys know what the other is thing. So many things go unspoken because we can read each others mind. I love her soooo much. I honestly can't explain how much I care for her. We have some good times a'comin!

K. So i love movie nights. Love cuddling. Love getting dressed up and going on dates or just going t to get takeout food. BUT seriously Girls nights are my favorite. Growing up- I was a tomboy. I grew up with boys. A good time consisted of football, dirtbiking, fishing, and bonfires. But LET ME TELL YOU... This summer-iv met some amazing girls that I cant get enough of. We laugh our butts off- make fools of ourselves and make fun of each other allll night. It's hard to find friends these days who can go out without drinking. It's nice to have some friends who don't need the booz to enjoy themselves. I LOVE THEM.

As we all head our separate ways as the summer comes to a close-- kinda makes me wanna meet them all over again- skip work and redo every night all over again...Tonight was one of the best nights! We threw down some beats - went to a creepy restaurant- and laughed until we peed our pants. I miss them already.

Oh Sundays.

We arrive to church, 10:01 one minute late and take the long walk (all 5 of us kids) to the 2nd to last row. We fight over who sits where and who owes who a back scratch. Finally we settle. I find myself listening to the crunches of the little kids behind us digging their lil chubby fingers into tupperware containers full of lucky charms as they try to reach the last marshmallow. One row over a young father lets his wife rest for a few minutes as he takes care of all 4 children...his finger in the palm of his infant.. two kids wrapped around his legs..his daughter on his lap making herself comfortable with her little white flats planted on the seat in front of her. I can't help but watch. That is one thing I look for when I am dating someone... Is how they interact with Children. I LOVE kids so much. They bring a happiness and energy to my life. Once again brings me back to Chile...where all the little kids would come up and dig through my bags during church looking for the "treats from the United States".  Church always take me back to what is important... I think it's because it's not just a building we go to each sunday- But a way of life.  I can't wait to have a family of my own one day. A big family. I love listening to the speakers each week that allow us to apply the teachings of Jesus Christ to our lives. I have a desire to strengthen my testimony each day. 

I love sundays. We just watched "Catfish" as a family. Um. Its a couple years old i think. But So worth watching. Its a documentary about Facebook...and kinda creepy.

Time for a bubble bath.

Birthday :)

Saturday Night I got to celebrate my 23rd at the Eli Young Band Young Band CD Release Show. They are One of my favorite singer/song writers. We had amazing seats and screamed the whole time. AND got yelled at by security guard crazy people. I enjoyed this concert with two of my favorite People-Brit and Kristian.

 

Here it goes...

I am sitting on my couch. Its 11:42. I just worked a 3:30-9:30 shift at CoalVines. $120. Not bad. Anything helps when your moving to hawaii. Today was a good day. Brit and I went to the Gym. We "trained" each other. We normally don't go to the gym together or we will just laugh the whole time and get NOTHING done. We did squats across the gym with weights...Each squat step we named something we're looking forward to. " Hawaii, Palmtrees, OCEAN, sand, toes, blonde, love, fruit, ....and several other things I won't mention." 50 squats later...we were ready to get on a plane and head on out.  I don't really know why I am going to hawaii other than cause its hawaii. When I was on my mission, I decided I was going to stay home and work... see what happens when Elder Murray gets home from his mission...and take life as it comes. But when I came home, My sister did some begging and I finally cracked. So now... I need to make a few more thousand dollars in the next couple weeks and i'll be set. Wow. it's been an emotional roller coaster lately. Lots of crazy things have been happening and sometimes I just wish I could be a little kid again when the trouble of the day was that my mom didnt give me an extra 75 cents to get an icecream bar for lunch. Those were the good ol' days. My life as a child was soccer, pizza, and my karaoke machine. I would make tapes of me singing, thanking all my fans and my inspiration "dixie chicks" haha. I always wanted to grow up...and now Im turning 23 (still young) but just life just happened...so fast. I want to do it all. But more than ever Iv realized that we have to remember what is important sometimes. If there is anything I learned from 18 months of serving a mission-it's that We have a special purpose here on earth. And that is to prepare to return with our Father in Heaven again. It's so easy to get caught up in the world. I find myself lost in it sometimes. But I know with all my heart that we are here for a special purpose and it's up to us to live it.

110 degree Arizona Photoshoot

So I managed to sneak in a little trip to Arizona to see Monica and heres the Photoshoot she did!! More to come!!  All Photos by: http://monicajohnsonphotography.blogspot.com/