wow. what a week. I honestly look around a feel like i'm living in a dream.
I think, at times, people put their dreams at such a distance from reality that they become unattainable.  For example Iv heard people say My DREAM would be to live in Europe. Or I dream of traveling the world while I am young. I just don't understand why people don't just make a plan and do it.
I remember the night when I sat on Brittany's bed and told I her I just couldn't go to Hawaii with her. I needed to save more money so I would have enough to just finish school. I wanted to continue to pay for my education without taking out a single loan...and trying to save thousands of dollars in a month or two just did not seem possible. She begged me to come with her.
And somehow it all worked out. A few little projects helped me bring in some money and some good tips at Coalvines added up.

 WE ARE HERE- in Hawaii. Today we just looked at each other and reminded each other that we need to appreciate it a little more. This isn't just a vacation. We wake up to the sound of the ocean everyday...We have bonfires at night and don't have to wear SHOES to class. We eat pineapple a little too much & make our way across the street to beach frequently.

I don't feel like I have these HUGE impossible dreams. But I am so thankful that I have been able to accomplish some of the goals I made for myself as a teenager. Serving a mission was my main goal. I felt-if I could do that  I could do anything. And it just happened so smoothly.

I also realize that saving money is an issue for some people and finances prevent some from accomplishing what they want. BUT I PROMISE YOU IT IS POSSIBLE WITH MUCH DEDICATION. My guilty pleasure is forever 21 & fast food. If I am trying to save money I just avoid the two at all costs. And the money starts to add up it really can. Oh and paying tithing. I have seen the miracles in paying tithing.

Brit and I have an interview tomorrow for a company on the North Shore :)

I was sitting in school today thinking about how I literally have not seen or spoken to Jamie in 2 years. I remember the first time he asked me to hang out with some friends of his. He pulled up in his lifted 88' jeep. I got in and felt like I was in Jurassic park. He had some rock song blaring, stopped at every stop sign completely, and definitely took the long way home. We were inseparable from that day forward. 2 years later we decided we were both going to go on a mission. What an emotional decision that was for both of us to make...but when we decided we were going to do it...we didn't turn back; Not for a single second. We worked so hard trying to save every penny. The night before he left I prayed that my Heavenly Father would allow me to serve my mission without having sad feelings of missing him. Now...Coming home was a little harder.
But I am so happy and excited for him to be coming home Thursday! So many of the people from his mission have sent me emails or messages about how they had never come in contact with a better person than him. I am glad that some people outside of our town in Texas had the opportunity to know and be helped by such a great person. I am sad that I cannot be there when he comes off the plane But i know that things will workout however God wants.

I'll be waiting for my phone call on thursday. wow.

Did I mention I love naps. Brit and I have never seen 4 p.m. here. We always take ourself a little nap right around then...I mean its like amazing.


I really like school. Even my hard classes are kinda nice. I need a challenge right now in my life and I am okay with school being one of them. I enjoy learning. We are reading Socrates in one of my classes. Socrates teaches about the benefits of self discipline. I can't say I have been the most self disciplined person in my life. Like Sometimes I'll say, Im going to exercise everyday with my dad NO MATTER WHAT. And i'll wake up and run to the fridge and right back to my bed. Im going to try and change that this semester. Not the working out part; but the self discipline.

One can reach a magnitude unimaginable with self discipline.

i love life.

i love to be among all walks of life.










today i will go to the beach alone to think.
i will listen to my playlist of Mumford&sons & Lady A.
i will brainstorm ideas for my business in the works.
i will learn how to surf&drown...from a Hawaiian.
i will eat a philly cheese steak sandwich right now.
i will make brighten brits  day when she gets home
i will say a little prayer for guidance for my future
& i will enjoy where i am. right here. right now.

Well. . . Hawaii has been amazing so far. Been doing a lot of homework and a lot of playing. Life is a lot slower pace here. The days last sooo long. Iv had to adjust to the lifestyle. But it really has helped me kinda kick back and relax a little. My classes are cool. Especially my Entrepreneurship classes. I know exactly what I want to do in my future but It's awesome to walk out of a lecture and be steaming with new ideas... Especially when it's coming from someone very successful. I love learning things I can apply.   

love it here.

campus 

Reality.
Class from 9:20-5
Nap after.. yeah i know.
Then we wait for possibilities of plans for the night.

Then just look at each other and think..nah lets just do nothing.
Sometimes we enjoy doing nothing more than something.
but we loved tonight.

Offroading with some friends. i love friends.

9/11 tribute

waste of time quiz

o1. tell me the truth, what made you start liking the person you like right now? attraction.
o2. what on your body is hurting or bothering you? a lil sun on my back
o3. what was your last thought before going to bed last night? its pouringgggg raining, my patio door is open...and i don't care.
o4. what are you listening to? brit laugh
o5. what’s something you’re not looking forward to? school starting
o6. where do you think your best friend is right now? in another state :(
o7. have you kissed anybody in the last five days? nope
o8. sex on the first date? no. not happening til wedding date.
o9. kiss on the first date? yea y not
1o. is there one person you want to be with right now? yess
11. are you seriously happy with where you are in life? YESSS
12. is there something you would like to say to someone? oh lots.
13. what are three things you did today? woke up to no alarm at 6 a.m., watched the ocean for a little, and just laughed.
14. would you rather sleep at a friend’s or have them over? have them over
15. what is your favorite kind of gum? spearmint
16. are you friends with any of your ex boyfriends? yes, all.
17. whats your dream car? black gmc sierra 
18. ever liked someone you thought you didn’t stand a chance with? hmm yeah sophomore year
19. does anyone have strong feelings for you? yes
2o. One dream you have that you have not accomplished yet? running a big business w/my husband
21. have you ever wasted your time on someone? oh yes.
22. Sun or tanning bed?  spf Always. & i will never step foot in a tanning bed again.
23. Phone or text? Um don't really like talking on the phone or texting.
24. you receive $60 without any reason, what do you spend it on? good food.
25. what is wrong with you right now? I just need to go to the bank. thats the only concern of the day...
26. is there anyone you’re really disappointed in? nope
27. would you rather have starbucks or jamba juice right now? jamba juice aloha pinapple xtra strawberries.
28. why aren’t you in ‘love’ with your last ex anymore? ...
29. how late did you stay up last night and why? 1a.m. the rain :)
3o. when was the last time you talked to one of your best friends? 2 days ago
31. Dark haired or blonde? Dark.
32. what are you looking forward to in the next month? talking to jamie!!
33. are you wearing jeans right now? nope
34. are you a patient person? not really
35. do you think you can last in a relationship for three months? of course
36. favorite color? turquoise blue
37. How many people have you kissed?  7 that count. 2 that don't count. yah i dont just kiss anyone.
38. are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants, or pajama pants? pajama pants
39. What is the best quality of your future husband?  LOVES kids
4o. Do you fall hard? Nooo
41. Can you get over people fast? yes.
42. do you like meeting new people? lovvvve it.
43. Are you picky? yah. too picky sometimes
44. ever liked someone older than you? yess
45. has anyone ever told you that you have pretty eyes? yup
46. Do like to exercise? I like to play sports. Not just run for no reason.

loves

-rap.indie.country music playlist.

-buffalo chicken tacos

-waking up to a good text :)

-meeting new people and knowing nothing about them

-my iphone

-my 3 best friends. emily. monica. kristian.

-Modern family 

-Blaring music

-when my man smells good :)

-a good foot massage

-naps

-ideas

-real people.

-freestylin' with my girls

somethings about me that will never change-

My suitcases are always overweight. And I am always shoving 16-28 pounds into my carryon last minute...even the Elders on my mission can vouch for that :)

[brit + me] = We.

& We like Real people... 

You only come across Real People every once in a while. A real person. No games. No lies. or fronts... just plain real. Those are the people that we keep in our lives...and will always remain.  When we meet someone who's real...we look at each other and don't even have to say anything. We just point..and feel it.

i love this lil man. his mind runs like mine. he just just took all the brains.

I am going to miss him

but...

I am so thankful for this chance to be here living in Paradise. 

with-A few goals in mind...

No attachments or nonsense  

just pure bliss

lots of snacks

good grades-hopefully :)

some new business ideas

and ummmm

something tells me love will find me here...

it's funny cuz im not looking and i don't need it right now. but ijust.know.it's coming.
i love love
&if theres something iv learned- its that...

2people do not have to be perfect- to be perfect for one another...
i just want someone who makes me want to be better
who respects me completely.
who is honest.
and will fight for me no matter what.
he is a hard worker and provider.
 he doesn't mess around
and doesn't do what's "convenient" 4him


He recognizes something good and does Not let it go.


iv never been a hopeless romantic. I don't even like chick flicks- 
But I have a few things that on the top of my list... and i won't settle for less.

day 1. priceless.

hmm. woke up at 6 a.m. went to the beach, walked to the gas station to get some treats, showered, laid around, then remembered we were here for college, took the bus to school- created the perfect major :) (all the things I love in one major), walked around campus, met some people, saw some people I didn't know were here, went to the grocery store. Brit got healthy stuff. I didn't. Ate some tacos.Took a nap. Went to the beach. Ate some more. eating a popsicle. 

loving life.

 <3 waking up to this.

 already has an addiction.

 our home.

many grillouts to come... :)

 <3 sisters.

1st night in hawaii.

lots of little things i love so far. for example going to the bathroom at the airport when this sign is there to greet you.

so its technically 3 a.m. in my texasbody but only 9 p.m. here.

started off the night with some Mcdonalds,

Got to our house.

We live on the top floor.

UM ITS AMAZING! SO nice! SO CLEAN.

heres a lil pic i just took.

I have already cried. I was hanging up a dream catcher and Hit my head on the metal ceiling fan that was on high. It cut my head open and I have a bump the size of golf ball. Tears shot out of my eyes-automatically. Britt tried to comfort and pat my head as she died laughing. We were too happy to let that ruin the night...

We didn't get to see the ocean yet cuz it too dark- But we can sure hear it from our bedroom window/patio...Thats the plan for the morning: Walk about 500 feet outside the front door to the ocean. 

I am so happy right now.

So at peace.

AND SO READY FOR OUR NEW LIFE here in Hawaii :)

10 thoughts of the day


1. Brit and I are too addicted to LOCKUP.
2. How in the world are we gonna eliminate 28 pounds from our suitcases so were underweight!
3. I ate 4 snickers ice cream bars today
4."But don't forget about that golden rule
What you do to others is gonna get done to you
What comes around goes around
I'm telling you baby, it's called karma" -j.andrews
5. I am so obsessed with music. especially GOOD country.
6. I have made a few promises to myself and god this week :)
7. I am going to miss my family sooooo much
8. I got my own ;)
9. I havnt ever had my heart broken but it sure feels like heartbreak when your lied to by someone who says they are "crazy about you"...
10. WHATtttttttt????? I'm moving to HAWAIII tomorrow!!??!??!?!

It does sometimes take Sundays to kinda kick me back into gear. Brit and I sang a duet in church today... "where can I turn for peace". The first verse says, " where can I turn for peace where is my solace...when other sources cease to make me whole... Where with a wounded heart anger or malace, I draw my apart searching my soul" I honestly feel like our world is constantly seeking happiness- which is an amazing thing. But it's so easy to look for it inthe wrong places... And most of the time we do it unconsciously. It's so important That one does not look to the "worldly pleasures" just to satisy themselves temporarily. I had a hard kinda frustrating night a couple weeks back- And I walked in chandlers room. He was sleeping so peaceful in his ohio state buckeyes Room. I laid by him and felt at peace. My heart just overfilled with love- I have to say I don't think I'll ever forget that moment. I kissed him on the cheek and he didn't say "ew" or run away :) I love the little blessings in life we receive when we stop for a few seconds and think or do something small but special.

whoah! Theres a lot of exciting things about to happen. I am a little nervous for once in my life. I am moving to Hawaii on Tuesday - studying business and a few other minor details involving someone returning home.... :) I don't have many plans but I am so excited to see what God has planned for me

Once upon a time there was a very imperfect family who lived in a house full of laughter. Some unnecessary jokes making fun of mom or hunter, some breakouts into wrestling matches, and a lot of singing took place in this imperfect home. Mom was always doing something for someone. Dad was always sticking up for mom and was always trying to do things right. Paige was probably eating or working on some other business idea she had in her crazy head, brit was resting. oh yeah..she Loved to rest. Hunt was coming in sweaty from football eating the entire fridge. A.j...was multi-tasking..watching espn top 10 and playing on his itouch and ipad at the same time. Over in the kitchen Chander was creating science with all moms spices and trying to sell it on the streets. 

One night they all got together and played some scattagories and let chandler win. or maybe he really did beat all of them because he was more intelligent than the whole family put together.

Yeah, once upon a time there was an imperfect family who Loved each other sooooo much, made fun of each other TOOOOO much, and well....this story is to be continued....

 i have always dreamed of living on the ocean.

finally its happening...in 4 days

on one of the most beautiful islands in the world.

hawaii.

I can't wait to...

learn to surf

eat popsicles

be free

have rainy/sunny days everyday

not know ANYONE

so i can meet ALL new people

play the guitar and sing

study in the sand

and Live on love.

with my sis.

Sometimes i feel like i walk around and around in circles...

I want out.